Pain, without love

Here I am
Drunk again
Drowning all the pain
That's in my head
Its always there
Leaving my sanity impaired
Every day I think
Of how you never cared

Its like your proud
Your ego screams so loud
The pain is real
Its all I feel
My innocence is gone
My hearts been empty for so long

The visions are clear
And still your all I fear
You always find your way
into my head
All the nights, you were drunk and loud
You threw yourself into my bed
I tried to fight
Tried to scream and shout
You shoves my face down
And said shut your mouth

You had your way
Day after day
Left mg body
As cold as dead

I see your face
And I seem to still
Get the same chills
right down my back

I asked you why?
What did you gain?
And all you said was
"Did you feel pain?
After all that you've been thru"

And I replied
"I paid more then
Just my dues...
I felt the pain of you..."