Life is hard at sixteen

Life is hard at sixteen
There's so much to get in the way
The route I chose was alcohol
Drinking each and every day

To do this I had to make friends
And had to make a deal
I'll get a place to drink and sleep
But id have to let them get a feel

Initially it felt great
The fact that older boys wanted me
So I gave my blessing to everything
Unaware of what it would turn out to be

I had unlimited access to liquor
I never had to be sober again
I drank whenever I got the chance
Whether I had one drink or ten

I'd drink all through my school days
I'd drink before my games
I'd drink to help me sleep at night
And the next morning to rid me of pain

I began to lose interest
In the boys not in the whiskey
But that didn't stop them from doing what they wanted
The moment I got a little tipsy

Instead of letting them do what they wanted
I tried to get myself space
But once you've signed in permanent ink
Your name just won't erase

Then one night I hit rock bottom
Not strong enough to fight them off
So I told them that I wanted it
I figured id be better off

I then decided to walk away
And eight months have come and gone
Now they've decided to haunt me
Not aware what they did was wrong

I find myself back in that place
When it's not that big of a deal
Who cares if they took advantage
I'm so numb I can't even feel

I know I shouldn't fall back into this
But it's too easy to say yes
Too easy to grab that whiskey bottle
And turn back into a mess

I guess I'll just sleep on it
And make it through the night
I'll text them in the morning
But for now I'll say goodnight