I can't talk to nobody

by britanny   Jul 30, 2014


I can't talk to nobody,
I feel like nobody understands,
So I pick up some paper and grab me a pen.
You see me smile, but if you only knew
The things that I hold on to,
And just can't seem to let go.
I know I must forgive and I said that I do,
But I don't really think that I actually do.
Forgive my mums ex or my mum
For the pain he put me through as a young girl
I spoke up, no one listened.
So it continued on and I just didn't mention it,
The things that went on in the middle of the night when he was drunk and off his head
It happened before so maybe it's all right.
At the age 10 and 11 and 12
Over and over and over again.
She never caught him, always thought I was lying, got engaged to him, nothing changed.
He kept on doing it to me. Only when he was drunk and off his head
I'm never going to get over it. I
I think about it every night before I go to bed
Have trouble sleeping at night.
I used to sleep with a knife now I sleep with a razor blade tucked into my bed
I know the only way to get over it,
Is to open up and speak,
But when I spoke when I was younger,
No one heard me.
So you tell me, what the hell do i do?
When that voice in my head keeps saying,
You wasting your time no one cares about you.
I can't shake that, I've believed that my whole life.
I'm just glad that God gave me a pen, paper, and the ability to write.
Cause when I feel like no hears me,
I just write.

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  • 9 years ago

    by Hallucinostic

    Good write. Life is always an interesting topic. Keep it up, like what you did here.

  • 9 years ago

    by Lune de ma vie

    This is awesome. I really enjoyed the expression of oneself throughout the entire poem. You really did a fantastic job by illustrating to the reader how a poem can give you comfort and meed. The fight within yourself and the battle around your life is shown throughout the poem as well, it's like a build up of negativity but once you grab that pen and put it to paper the calm and peace you find is indescribable. Really well written, and powerful and magical piece.

    • 9 years ago

      by britanny

      Thank you so much for the feedback makes me happy. and thats what people say that i can give them comfort through out the whole poem and that some people can feel the sadness from me into their hearts. thanks for reading and im glad that someone else likes it