Here i sit all alone

by britanny   Jul 30, 2014


Here i sit all alone not know what to do.
its like no one what to know me anymore
my father left me at a very young age
my mother wished i was dead ( i don't blame her i wish i was dead too)
all my firends have left me here to defend on my own.

lately all i want to do is curl up in a ball and just cry myself to sleep
its not like no-one would eve care if they didn't see me. because it looks like they would be happier if i wasn't here.

my mother keeps telling me to go cut my wrists open all the time but when i do it she yells at me for doing it. she wished that i had died in her stomach. she says so many things to me but what am i meant to do I'm just a 17 year old girl that no one listens to.

father why did you leave me with her?
was i that bad as a child that you wanted me to live through all this?
would you miss me when I'm finally gone? 10 foot down in a hole. then will you be sorry that you left me here with her?
I'm sorry that I'm a screwed up mess.

i just wanted someone to love me, to care for me, to show me that i am important but maybe. just maybe no one really understands how much i want to live.

well today is the day were i leave all the bad things that happend behind. i leave the mother that gave birth to me and then made my life a living hell. i leave the father that left me with his ex wife when he knew that she would have done this to me. i leave all them fake friends that would talk behind my back and laugh, finally but not least i leave behind the old me and start a new life away from everyone that gave me hell

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  • 9 years ago

    by alka mendiratta

    Heart rendering write .You have poured your heart out in this sad write.
    These bitter experiences of life can be used as a springboard and you are a strong girl .Believe in yourself and bounce back and live your life to the fullest.

  • 9 years ago

    by Lune de ma vie

    I'm sorry to read this as it is a sad poem expressing much pain and suffering, and as though it is sad it's good to get it out onto paper or well internet..

    You must rise above it all and stay strong, live how you want to live.. and always dream as big as you want.

    The graphic nature of this poem was really profound and captured my emotions deep wishing I could help somehow. You've really put together an outcry of such hurt it is a artistic poem with rough edges, I mean that is a good way.

    Really gave the reader a image to piece the poem together freely and seamlessly.. Also the way you wrote it was a way that the reader could envision and feel what you are feeling.

    Nice job, stay strong.