When all is lost....give up

Normal people appreciate life,
it seems to be alright,
you work your arse off all day long,
go home and sleep at night,

see for me this just isn't enough,
iv seen the truth off it all,
iv been to the bottom of every pit,
hit every stupid wall,

iv been down and depressed,
committed suicide apparently was nearly dead,
drank endless bottles of whiskey,
still nothing numbs the pain in my head,

i feel nothing but anger,
dissapointment and emasculated,
my pride has been torn from me,
stuck in this patetic life incarcerated,

a wise man once told me,
if i wasn't for the cracks thered be no light,
well everything i have has been shattered,
yet I'm still far from alright,

seems god wont let me die,
and life wont let me live,
after everything iv ever done,
iv got nothing left to give.