You don't know how broken I really am
The constant sound of shattering in my chest
The constant red flowing from my body
The constant whispering in my ear.
You will never know how much pain I am in
never feel the knife turning and churning a hole in my back
never feel the misplaced guilt within me
never feel the denial of words
never feel the choke when trying to speak
never feel the never ending burn behind my eyes
never feel the hopelessness when they look at me
never feel the slipping of my sanity
You will never see the darkest part of me
never see the black void where my heart should be
never see the empty space where my mind once lay
never see the blankness of my once colorful mind
never see the my forever tear-streaked face
never see the broken mess of my body
never see the whiteness of my clenched fists
never see the holes in my existence
You can never hear me, I don't want you to
never hear my ragged screams
never hear my broken sobs
never hear my pitiful begging
never hear my flesh tearing
never hear my life shattering
never hear my false happiness
never hear my voice cracking
You will never know, and I sure as hell hope you never have to know my true self the one I hide behind this cracked mask, falling apart.
You can never see the real me
for I fear that my own self will attack me, and I want to minimize the number of casualties I cause, so stay away from me and my shattered life, Please I am just trying to help you, stay in your light, and leave me be
