I do wish that sometimes i was dead,
At least that way i know you'll be gone out my head.
I wish you could feel my suffering my longing my pain,
Its like someone stamping on my heart over again and again.
why did you take them from me i cant take the loss,
but i have some peace knowing they are up there with the holy boss.
i want to join them and hold them forever,
then when the rest of the family come we'll be in heaven together.
But i want to say thank you to the lady i spoke to at the door,
i told her what was happening and a whole lot more.
See got upset i see her heart sink down with the pain inside,
I know she struggled to say tell them i love them and that I'm so so sorry as she nearly cries.
i want to thank her for what she said,
its helped fight the problems in my head.
its not always a terror or horror it can now be a joy,
As i get to sit and hold our little girl and boy.
