Sometimes:Always

Sometimes
and by sometimes
I mean always. . .
Always.
I don't want
to be -
I wish I was not
Alive.

I am always -
spinning wheels
chasing cars
going nowhere.
Drifting
milling
listless
restless
hopeless
loveless
worthless
Alone.

Sometimes
and by sometimes
I mean always. . .
Always.
I don't want
to be -
I wish I was not
Alive.

I am always -
tired
weary
heavy.
One step
behind
too late
not enough
uselessly striving
in endless days
Alone.

Sometimes
and by sometimes
I mean always. . .
Always.
I don't want
to be -
I wish I was not
Alive.

Always.