Hidden in the darkness

Today the battle begins again
Just as it did yesterday
The fight just to get out of bed
It begins again
The fight I can not win
No matter how clear the skies
How bright the sun
I will forever be cast
In a shadow of black
You can't ask for help
There aren't even words
For the messed up evil that's inside
So you spare the innocent
From the blackness that is cast
They couldn't possible understand
The war that rages inside
You continue to go on
Hidden behind the mask
The mask they see
They see a smile
They see you laugh
They don't know
It's just the mask
You can only say I'm ok
So many times
Before the scars
Start to show
The razor blades
The drops of blood
The torn flesh
The healing scars
This is your world
Those around you
Don't even know
Hours turn into day
Days into weeks
Weeks into months
Months into years
How long can you go
Before you say
I've not only lost the fight
But also the war
As the day nears
When I will no longer be
My words to those close
Don't cry over me
As time goes by
You will move on
You will forget
Just know
I didn't do this to hurt you
I did this to save you