One shot isn't enough I tell myself
I have to take two maybe four
Whatever it takes to erase this memory
Until I don't feel the pain anymore
It burns as the liquid fills my throat
But not enough to make me stop
I swallow until there's nothing left
Not even a single drop
I never thought I would let it get this far
But this is the place where I am now
I don't know how to cope with this
Drinking Is the only way I know how
I know you wouldn't be proud of me
This isn't the way that we were raised
But drinking is my temporary fix
To help me get through the days
The days that I must live without you
I can't believe I'm on day three sixty two
How does life simply go on
Tell me what am I supposed to do
How can I smile through this unbearable pain
How do I get over this hurt
How can I get my faith back
Prayer just doesn't seem to work
So I'll open the bottle and take a big gulp
3 shots maybe enough tonight
But just in case I'll take two more
I'm not brave enough to fight
Just be strong they tell me
Fight...don't give up hope
But my fight left on the day you died
Drinking is how I now cope
