The night may be over
but the monster is still here,
haunting my mind
with memories I try to deny.
No one knows my pain
of being broken, yet being numb,
slowly losing grip of my self control,
which urges me to find my razor blades
and be done with all this hurting!
Craving that release,
as I know pent up emotions
will also be freed.
Making the mistake of thinking
that I can do it just once,
then stop,
but desperation kicks me
and I already know deep down
that it's way too late
for me to turn back now.
