Shutting Down To Numb

I'm shutting down,
becoming numb.
I will not hurt another moment longer,
it's the only way to survive.

I am done with how it feels,
done with hoping that you will wake me
from this dream and love me like before.

I really thought you would never hurt me,
and I just couldn't believe that you left me so cold.

You went away,
and I thought I would be breaking
but I am not.

I won't cry.
I won't ask you why.

I know I am better off without you,
without love,
because I know that my heart
will never be the same again.

There is no way I could ever relive this pain.

Saffie
25

17/5/16