I Cannot

I cannot wait for you to pick me up and swing me around.
I cannot wait for you to say you love me then put me back on the ground.
I cannot wait for moments and dreams that might not ever come true.
I cannot wait for you to take me away, it makes me think that you're through.
I cannot see how you could like a girl like me.
I cannot see how any girl could not like you, with your exquisite ways, you're just so free.
I cannot see that we actually talk or walk side by side.
I cannot see how you could still call me beautiful after all the hours I cried.
I cannot say the words you once told me.
I cannot speak when I look at you just sitting there, reading under the tree.
I cannot say "I love you" without wondering if you love me too.
I cannot speak because I have realized that we ourselves grew.
I cannot hear your voice anymore.
I cannot hear the words that make me weak, it's half past bullshit and quarter to more.
I cannot hear when the car door slammed and you left me behind.
I cannot hear the yelling or the guy that I have come to find.