You kill me

Why me
please
tell me
why leave
when
you could stay with me

why him
why did
you
have to do what you did

i gone
I'm lost
I'm dead
while your with him in dieing in my bed

i hate you
but love you
i feel so confused
what to do
about you

this sucks
so much
i need someone
to hold me tonight

i hate these
feelings
that i feel
they me so sad at times

i need
you now
but you
are never to be found

help me
save me
I'm begging
you please

you kill me
all the time
every day
and every night