Gosh This hurts....

My <3 seriously hurts like hell... i miss him soo bad and i can't even cry since the tears won't fall or they hate me since i was raised cold or am i just a monster to not be able to mourn him? for freaking sake i should at LEAST be able to shed a tear but i can't what the hell is wrong with me? i feel the pain in my heart but my tears don't fall there is NOTHING more painful right now to me i could cut but it wouldn't numb my pain till i was knocked out that would help... gosh this hurts what's wrong with me?

Nothing is wrong with you! Everyone reacts to pain differently. You mentioned that you cannot mourn for the person! May I ask who that person was? And what had happened? If not! It's ok... Just talk to me, I'll listen. Always thinking Ti.xo