replied to Hellon
3 weeks ago, updated 3 weeks ago
The truth is quite a lot of them were actually accidents because I was thanking people for leaving comments as Wuggleberry then realising I was logged in as Milly and having to go back super quick and rewrite the thanks changing them into comments to try and disguise who I was.
The personal thanks that I gave people for their comments were genuinely heart felt because those people took the time to reach out to a new person and make them feel not only welcome but encouraged too and I couldn't leave them thinking that those comments were not appreciated.
Even though I had written the poems myself (and it was a surprise to receive so much such support and encouragement) it felt hollow, tainted and I couldn't shake the ever increasing feeling of discomfort. I didn't realise how bad doing something like this would make me feel. I wanted so many times to just admit what I was doing but the scientist in me wanted answers and the peace keeper in me wanted to put to rest all of the whisperings and discontent that have invaded the site recently.
For the first time I suddenly realised that being a detective isn't all its cracked up to be and wasn't at all the experience that I expected it to be. Thank fully the results were good and hopefully helped bring some clarity to some of the on going issues.