A really well written poem, Tony; there is such a genuine feeling of loss and yearning throughout this.
Personally, I feel that - unless we open ourselves up to love and, yes, hurt - there's no point living. Easy to say, I know, but if there's a storm, I'm going to run through it and if I get knocked over by the squall, I'm going to get up and keep going. If, at the end of it all, I only have bruises to show for my efforts, well damn it, at least I tried. But what if that squall lessons and you even end up in a sunny meadow? You'll never know unless you keep running, Tony, so that's my humble advice.
An honest write full of loss and heartbreak but is so sad a thought too. Imagining a life without love is just as unbearable as living with the pain of heartbreak. Sometimes (and I speak from experience) reaching rock bottom where it seems there will never be light or end to pain again is often the catalyst that thrusts us back up to better life experiences and takes us in directions that we could have ever thought possible.
I'm sending you a warm hug and all my hopes that your pain passes and that you find peace and uplifting love again when you are ready. Best wishes Milly x