Not A Birthday

by C Cattaway   Jun 7, 2019

She would have been so perfect,
With her little button nose.
She looked as if she were complete;
Ten fingers. Ten small toes.

She would have been a person.
In my heart, she truly was.
She should have been alive,
But I have suffered, from her loss.

At 16 weeks and 5 days,
She was miniature, but whole.
I loved her from the day I knew.
My life can't fill that hole.

The medics were all brilliant,
But still the fact remains,
That 16 years ago, today,
I lost my small Therése.

And life goes on without her.
I remember days like these,
For it was not her birthday,
Just the date she did not breathe.

Written June 5th on her 16th anniversary

Copyright C Cattaway 2019


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  • 10 months ago

    by C Cattaway

    Thank you. I don't find time to write any longer, & when I come on site, I find the thoughts in my head disappear, but there are some subjects that just command an emotional recognition, & this is the biggest one, for me x

  • 11 months ago

    by - Mr. Darcy

    As deeply moving as this is, I am pleased you've shared what would have been, Therése 16th birthday.
    A landmark occasion like this celebrated by so many is bittersweet for you. Imagining all the could and should have been is hard.
    The way you conclude is a reality check. Not a birthday, more 16 years since she sadly passed.
    I am so sorry for your loss.

  • 11 months ago

    by Milly Hayward

    So sorry to hear of your loss. It's tough for people who are unable to conceive but worse when you do and still lose your baby. This piece is heart breaking. Sending you warm hugs. Milly x