No one should be given up on and no one deserves to be in so much pain. Sometimes our tough circumstances transforms us into bitter people, because of our own hurt we lose the skills of taking care of those we love because we lack this stability. But this should not be the end of the road, do no give up. There is always a way to make a change, put hate aside, love yourself to be able to rise from your situation and keep those you love.
I felt this. So much. Pain has such a strong way of changing a person. Turning the once most pure souls into demons trapped inside of our own bodies and mind. I can remember plenty of times literally begging God to take me away. If He loved me he would just take me in my sleep or something. BUT I'm here to tell you, suicide isn't the answer. It may stop your pain, only releasing it to others who genuinely love you. Whether you know it or not. I know easier said than done sometimes but you ARE meant to be here. I will send some positive vibes over seas for ya. Lol. I hope things get better for ya. I don't wish that kind of mindset on my worst enemy.