Metanoia

<the journey of changing one’s mind, heart, self, or way of life>

I’ve become the master of my own demise.
I’ve fueled the chaos living in my mind.
I feel it’s time for my demons to die.
Only then the salvation I will find.

For over a decade I have masked my pain.
I’ve lived and fought silently alone.
I’ve come undone and blamed myself.
It’s the only way I have known.

I need to stop asking the questions why.
I need to let myself heal and live life.
I need to cut those loose who wish me harm.
It’s ultimately up to me to make this right.

I may be scared of what’s hidden beneath.
All the pain and betrayal I’ve buried deep within.
I need to tackle it and face it head on.
Right now is the time for my life to begin.

I need to accept myself and learn to love.
I’m no longer that scared little girl.
I have strength and I’m unafraid.
I have fought for the justice I deserve.

I will let this weight drop from my shoulders.
The faith in myself I will search for.
I will learn to breathe more easily.
I will not let this hate go on anymore.

For I have survived the greatest battles.
This war I will not let it get the best of me.
I will find my happiness I am worthy of.
From this abyss I am determined to break free.