The Saddest Part

The saddest part of life
is that people gotta heal from love.

Not war.
Not death.
Not disaster.

Love.

Something that was supposed to hold you
ends up being the thing you survive.

And nobody talks enough about how insane that is.

How somebody can say
“I love you”
while teaching your nervous system
what fear tastes like.

How hands that once held your face
can turn into the reason
you shake when people raise their voice.

And somehow the person who got destroyed
becomes the one expected to rebuild everything.

The abusers don’t go to therapy.
Their victims do.

The abusers move on.
Post selfies.
Fall in love again.
Sleep peacefully.

While the people they broke
sit in dimly lit rooms
trying to explain to a stranger
why affection feels dangerous now.

Trying to untangle whether that was love
or just manipulation with good marketing.

You ever notice how trauma makes poets outta people?

How pain teaches you metaphors
because the truth hurts too bad to say plain.

So instead of saying
“He destroyed me,”
you say
“I’ve been feeling heavy lately.”

Instead of saying
“She made me hate myself,”
you say
“I’m working on my confidence.”

We dress wounds up in soft language
because if we said it honestly
it would sound too ugly to survive.

And what kills me most
is how victims always become students.

Learning boundaries.
Learning self-worth.
Learning red flags.
Learning how to breathe again.

While the people who caused the damage
just keep becoming stories
other survivors tell each other
as warnings.

That’s the part I can’t swallow.

How cruelty leaves cleaner than kindness does.

How good people walk around
carrying emotional shrapnel
from battles they never started.

How some people gotta spend years
convincing themselves
they were worthy of softness
the whole time.

And still,
they love again.

Like that ain’t the bravest thing a human can do.

To have your heart turned into a crime scene
and not become cruel afterward.

To be hurt
and still choose tenderness.

I think that deserves more credit
than revenge ever will.