This poem is really sad, and somewhat pessimistic, but I cannot drag myself away from the fact it is so true. Especially when your head is in that place of darkness, where it already feels like it is drowning, only you never die. You feel like you are trying, only nothing ever changes or happens, and things begin to feel pointless, hopeless.
More great word choices throughout this, I think this is why your poetry never sounds cliche, even if the idea or topic might be, each poem is unique and offers wording or imagery that i have never came across before.
Can so fall in love with this poem right now, I bet so many people could relate to this if they knew it existed!