&& (sometimes) i don't even think that you know i'm ALIVE .

You know what's really [sad]

i don't even know MYSELF anymore .

I just want to run up to you like a little kid again and give you the biggest hug i can.

How do you go on eachday living a lie?

believe me i know,
once you get the hang of it, it's alot easier than you think.

Is only loving you ... selfish of me?

Even [ you noticed ] that when i said i hate you , that it was a LIE.

Maybe, just maybe
' I TRY TOO HARD '

You caught me . red handed . with my heart ripped out, crushed & broken, lieing on the ground.
bleeding into the earth.

just tell me. how does it feel now ?

Sure everyone has those * relationships* where you say i love you about a million times a day and you hold hands/kiss/hug and simply enjoy the time together but,

how many people [ actually ] mean it when they say ' i love you '?

Can you tell me, how it feels to be holding my heart in your hands with the blood dripping down onto the ground and seeing ( me ) lieing there begging you to love me .