These empty months have proved my inability to treat you like you deserve to be treated. But then you can't expect me to change who I am.

Something dirty's got you dear, makes me want to be with you
something painful's with you dear, makes me want to be with you

Crushing our lungs, we broke our hearts
The tears didn't flow until the front door shut
The jokes went stale and we forgot how to laugh
Some good things they never will stand a chance

Hope isn't in question, it's a question of how many times you can repeat the same feelings. Before you go numb, you always roll the dice. We always try, try again.

When I grow up I wanna be sedated.
Looking for liquor and love, forever hated.
Plant the seed and the fury spreads like legs,
Without a light at the end of the tunnel
Unless they set the whole mountain ablaze.

It's been a long time since I've seen you and I'm much better off. I've got more than a few good reasons I've been ignoring all your calls. You said you listened, but you never heard a word.

I can't count how many times you've let me down
I'm so sick of pretending that I want you around

There's a difference between running from something
and searching for anything

So tell me please, were you searching for contentment? You came home empty handed with a feeling of resentment. Smoke and mirror's, it's just an illusion. The real world's a joke and that's my conclusion.

They tell me you're in heaven, and if that's true, tell god it doesn't need you half as much as I do