You always said just ask so here I go, I need your help to heal. Can you help me?

I'm not able to stop the self distruction its to damn addicting, so give me another hit of the shit you call pain.

Give her what I never got, love her more and treat her right. Take what you learned, all the faults, fix them and make things better, don't make the same mistakes again.

Is it ok if I tell you I love you, or does it still need to be a secret?

Just tell me how you feel, about me, about her, about everything I want to know.

I dont think you realise I cry over everything, you just dont see it.

If you honestly feel the way you tell me you do, then why is it so hard to end it with her?

Your the best and worst thing to ever happen to me, your the reason I laugh, cry, am happy and sad but I sepose with or without you around I'll love you until the end. (I can't help it)

Cher Pere Noel,
La seul chose que je veux pour Noel s'est qu'il m'aime comme avant, comme je lui aime tous les jours.
Affectueusement Jordan

11 11 I wished that I could make him happy but I have realized that that was selfish because if I am no longer that one person in his life, then I want his new choice to make him happy. He deserves it.