I lost you

When I came into this world I held you tight and you kissed me on my little head.
You cared for me and I cared for you too.
Since I was little you kissed my boo boos and brushed my hair.
You made me food and got me drinks.
You feed me bottles and baby food.
Until I grew up and then you just bought me things with the little money we had.
then when I tured 11 you got sick and I cried even know i didn't know what you meant.
Then I did when you said you wouldn't get better.
I knew i wouldn't see you again.
I sat in my room trying to find a way to escape this.
Then the phone rang .
They said you passed away but i knew you only held on for me.
I looked at myself in the miror.
Eyeliner running down my face.
I knew what to do now if I wanted to be with my mommy.
I got my razor blade and slit.
The pain wasn't even close to how much pain my heart felt I just cried until I couldn't anymore.