THE ROLLER COASTER...

Sitting here remembering everything i went

through. My mind is racing trying to get through.

My heart is breaking without you. When i close

my eyes all i see is pain. Oh my god I'm going

insane. Here we go again. Its like I'm on a ride

that doesn't ever end. The closer i get to the top

the farther down it will drop. Sometimes its rocky

and sometimes its smooth. Sometimes I'm upside

down. Sometimes i feel like jumping out, but not

knowing whats beyond is whats keeping me still.

Not knowing at all exactly whats real. Just knowing

my life is a roller coaster that doesn't ever stop.

I'm just sitting here waiting for it to drop or waiting

for my mind to pop. Whatever it is its keeping me

still. Feeling like I'm locked in jail maybe I'm in hell.

My mind is racing but it ain't making sense. My

mouth is moving but ain't s**t coming out. I feel

my tears rolling down my face but my eyes ain't

crying. What the f**k am i dying? seeing pictures

flashing of past events. Oh how i wish i could do it

over again. I would of fixed all the s**t i did wrong.

I'm on this roller coaster of life sitting so close to the

edge that I'm surprised I'm not dead. So many nights

i cried and begged god for the chance to die, but

I'm still here. So many drugs i should of never took.

So many memories left in my mind. So many

regrets i never said. So many I'm sorry's i never

spoke. So many friends i dissed know wonder I'm

alone and know one give a s**t. Damn know wonder

my lifes a B***h look at all the s**t i did. Know

wonder I'm on this roller coaster of life, but why cant

i just jump out? is it cause I'm scared? is it cause I'm

dumb? or is it cause god is telling me it ain't done?

Damn what more can i over come? F**k this I'm just

gonna jump out. Wow maybe thats what hes telling

me to do. Jump out of this mind and leave that past

behind. From this point on its all knew. Damn now i

know what to do..