Id lie to you...

Hi, my name is Nikki
And yes thats true
I wouldnt lie
Well maybe I would, but only to you.

I would tell you that I was happy
And have everything figured out
I would tell you I fear nothing
And dont have a single doubt

I could tell you my day was great
And that nothing went wrong
I could say that with a smile
And you would think I was strong

I could make you believe me
With some truth, thats unreal
I could make you never doubt
Everything I feel

I could tell you everything is perfect
And you would have to believe
For there is no reason
For you to decieve

I could tell you something about me
And make it seem real
I could say Im living the life of my dreams
And sadness you wouldnt feel

But you dont know me
And maybe everything I said was true
Or maybe it was a lie
Becuase I would only lie to you

Everything was a lie
And the real me your about to see
For Ill tell the truth
And in that truth is me

I could tell you I was happy
But really that was a lie
The only reason I said that
Was so you didnt see my wish to die

I could tell you my day was great
But really it was bad
The reason I didnt tell you
Was so my unseen cuts wouldnt make you mad

I could fake a laugh
And make it sound real
I could fake it all
It really isnt a big deal

I could throw on a smile
And show all my teeth
I could hide everything I feel
Way underneath

I could fake my attitude
Fake everything I have inside
Pretend to live each day
When really, I died

I could put on some make-up
And put glitter in my hair
You would think I was perfect
But I face my fate, and stare

I could look you in the eyes
And lie to your face
I would say Im okay
When really thats not the case

I could say Im content
When really I want to run
I could stay perfectly still
As my life came undone

Its hard to see who I am
And its ever hard to write
People cant see me
With their narrow vision of sight

For I dont know myself
And probably never will
This is from someone I dont know
Who I shall kill

Kill someone you dont know
Even if its you
Everything Im saying
Is my lie, so true

Like I said in the beginning
My name is Nikki and yes that true
Becuase I wouldnt lie
Well I might, but only to you...