The Most Important Word

I was looking for a word I could not find
And when I finally found it
It was right where it belonged
And nowhere but where it had always been
But I think you watched it along
Watched as it came too late
Watched me blind to your confession
To know I never knew your reasons
Warped pleasure in the cruel heartache

I was looking for a word I could not find
And when I finally found it
It was right where it belonged
But by then it was too late