I can't take it

I can't take it anymore
faking being happy
wearing a mask every day
hiding my scars
it's to much
I can't take it
is this really life
cause I'm in hell
all I can think about is her
and how I can kill myself
I can't fake this smile any longer
it's over
life is to painfull
is death any easier
I welcome death
and I push away life
I'm tired of being made fun of
being judged cause of my arms
is this how life should be
full of pain misery and hate
why did I have to be born in this world
why couldn't I be born in a book
where at least I know I'll have an happy ending
is this the end
or only the begining
I don't know if I want to wait and find out
or take the cowards way out
I can't be strong any longer
I just can't
it's to much