Drugs

I can see it in his eyes
As it takes him on a ride
I know he tells me lies
As I wait for it to subside

I know I don't have long
To tell him how I feel
I'm trying to be strong
But I know this is for real

It barely last two days
And then it makes an appearance
I guess I'm not okay
As his life is incoherent

I'm feeling so alone and very very scared
I'm living with the fear
Not doing what I need, even if I dared
In hope he won't continue to get some more gear

I took a role as good as wife
I can't help you anymore
I feel you have chosen the bad drug life
I know I did ignore

It has ripped apart your soul
Though you think you are okay
It has taken total control
I am not your saving grace

You have lied to your family
And also to yourself
I think of this so sadly
As it takes over your health

I learned to live a lie
And I live with that regret
I seriously don't know why
But I know I should forget

You tore my love apart
As your soul filled with ice
I gave you all my heart 
I feel this won't suffice 

You want me one more time
But I cannot take that step
I think you need to climb 
With a lot more depth

Your anger and your rage
Installed me with fear
I was locked inside your cage
Hopelessly wiping away my tears

Collapsing on the floor
From your fist to my face
You hit me in the core
I am not your saving grace

You installed me with fears
As you fought with your fists
Again, I wipe away my tears
I think I will slash my wrists

You left me with the scars
I am trying to repair
As I look up to the stars
I'm feeling so very bare

You broke all your promises
And now you think your back
I have gone through all these obstacles
But are you still in love with crack

You took my love
I have regret
Who are you
Leaving all your scars

I am not your ghost
I have grown too strong
Your soul is not pure
Your heart is not true