Alone.....

Silence like a voice to be unheard
Quiet ocean waters left undisturbed
I look around and see all kinds of life
But in my depression I am locked in at night
I lost love the yelled over mountains
Where I lay now I wonder where the sound is
I have no one in my life that even cares
If I would die tomorrow will anyone be aware
My feelings and emotions are destroyed by me
I caused all this pain I cant set myself free
I am def with no audible tone
That's why everyone keeps going and I am left alone
I had it good I loved very hard
But because of my past I am officially scared
I build my own bridges and torn them down right after
Alone forever I shall stay cause I am my disaster
I wish not to die but hate the thought of living
Being loved is for the takers and not for the giving
I have so many emotions that I cry for you
Alone I stay cause theres nothing I can do
Its funny I see you in my dreams
And hear your name as the wind blows
Its not that I am mean
But truly no one really knows
On how I really feel cause I keep everything hidden
I can never let anyone in my heart
For its now and always will be forbidden
I will never have inner peace and love
Its all out of my control
Cause until the day I die I will always be alone...