Living idle

Suicidal is just living Idle
In my Brain is just a mish mash of pain
But I’ll not complain. it just gets contained
then i feel so very ashamed
contaminated with demons
i wish to be Assassinated
Push the button And It BeActivated
It is Up for debate
Guess I’ll just have to wait
Can’t stand the weight it Bares
Can’ t it Just wait
or is it already to late ?o
I want to be seen
but not to keen to create a scene
i mean it’s me
it’s always been a dream
am i just a cat that’s lost the cream.
or is this just one big dream?
let f@!ng hope so
cos i love to live and thrive in my high.
sammmie j ©?2018