Disillusioned

I want you to touch me
Stroke and caress me, ever so slow
Put my hands into your hands
And on a journey we will go

I don't want you to touch me
I just wish that you would go
Why I am even with you
The answer, I do not know

Our life together will be a fairytale
An unforgettable love story
With days and nights of passion
Featuring you and me

I didn't think it would be this way
A nightmare in disguise
With days and nights of loneliness
And teardrops in my eyes

You make me feel so beautiful
So precious and unique
You make me feel so powerful
Your charm and magnetism makes me weak

You make me feel so repulsive
So ugly through and through
You make me feel disgusting
So ashamed; can't even look at you

You'll always be there for me
With your arms around me tight
I feel so safe and so secure
As we cuddle through the night

My bed is always empty
Even though you are at home
I feel so lost and so rejected
So cold and all alone

I want to tell you all my secrets
And spend the rest of my life by your side
To welcome you home in the evenings
With my arms opened wide

I want to tell you how much I hate you
And spend the rest of my life telling the world
Of how you destroyed my undying love for you
And broke the heart of an innocent girl

*This poem is dedicated to all the women
who are with me in my loathing,
for all those wicked, conniving “jesters”
who dress up in “knight in shining armour’s" clothing.
For every girl who has dreamed of a rescue,
from a stallion riding knight,
and who has found out that her fairytale’s ending
has not turned out quite right.
Which brings us dear ladies,
to one disappointing conclusion,
hold on tight to your hearts girls,
or else you'll end up disillusioned*