Leaving you behind

For what reason do I have to live anymore
There is nothing to feed on nothing to explore
Everything I imagined and wanted in life
Brook out in agony by using the knife

I wanted friends I could trust and rely
But this would never do because they lie
And towards the end they say good bye
Every night I lay in my bed and cry

So I wonder amously in this world of mine
Pretending that i'm happy and everything is fine
I walked through the park where I grew up
Thinking about all the good times with my pup

I sit down on the bench near the big oak tree
Wondering would anyone miss the suffering me
If I would pack all my belongings and run free
Would any one care if I would take off and flee

I can't stand people who get misused and abused
seeing them every day always alone and bruised
hiding there deep sorrow in there dark lonely heart
and soon all of them will want take there life apart

that is how my life is when i suffer in great pain
people can not tell I'm crying when i walk in the rain
when up all stressed and down i take cocaine
those are the days when I cut and pop my vein

some days I'm dead out lying on the dirty floor
when I'm in public people say i look like a whoore
those are the days when my life wants to end
when all i can do is say its all unreal and pretend

So this is why I want to die almost every day
I would not care if people talked if i was straight or gay
because the next morning i'll be in my coffin flying away
never to see you every agian and never to stay