I find it hard...

I find it hard to see you every day
I find it hard to forget all my pain
I wonder if you feel the same
I wonder if you remember my name

I find it hard to see you there
I find it hard to smile at you
I remember how you used to swear
I remember when you said, 'it's through'

I find it hard to understand
I find it hard to carry on
I wish you were still around
I wish that you weren't gone

I find it hard to soothe my heart
I find it hard to stop the tears
I tear my soul apart
I tear away my fears

I find it hard to staunch the blood
I find it hard to hide the scars
I watch the liquid, like a flood
I watch from behind iron bars

I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to make you see
I never really got over you
I don't want to believe you've forgotten me