A Shell of Me

It wasn't just a heart he broke
That day he said goodbye
He took away the trust I had
With his deceit and lies
He left me scarred and tainted
In this shell where I now live
Unable to believe again
And so hard to forgive.
I see him every once and awhile
He had no trouble moving on
Unlike this mass of emptiness
That I can't see beyond.
Each morning I awake to find
That I'm nowhere near healing
And even though I try so hard
I can't get past my feelings.
Each night I lay beside the pillow
Where he once laid his head
I ask the same old questions
But the answers left unsaid.
Was it me that turned away
And stopped him in his tracks
Maybe he thought he had no choice
But to leave and not look back.
Still questions haunt my memory
They bring me to my knees
And leave me in this lonely shell
With barely air to breathe.