When i was 17

I wake up before the alarm
Push the homework off the bed
Exhausted, i turn around and look at my spouse
Thinking of the lie that i live
The loveless days we spend together
The loveless nights we lie down beside each other
I go to the washroom and lock the door
A chill rolls down my spine
A numbing heat rushes threw my body
My hairs begin to stand on end
The tears role down my face
I'm panicking, i can't move, i can't breath
I try to yell yet nothing comes out
It feels like the end, so much time as passed
Then Austin begins to cry
The pills are dropped, the door unlocked
I try to drown this sorrow thats taking over with memories
I take a deep breath and put on a smile
The numbing feeling begins to dissipate
The tears begin to dry
I survived another day
Time to go to school