Beautiful Pain (for my strong loving cousin)

Searing pain, surgery, hurt.
Such beauty can have so much wrong behind it.
i try to speak, i try to eat, i try to laugh,
all of it , over taken by pain.

A close somebody, like a sister
has pain behind the beauty.
I feel the Infliction of pain through her.
Knowing, that I, cannot do anything
in my little human, impotient form.

This thing called prayer, ill try it.
Usually people pray, to take guilt away
But do they really know who their praying to?
Are they praying to anything at all?

How can i know what i am praying, is being heard?
Is it diligent enough for my creator?
How can i have words for such beautiful pain?
How do i know i am praying right?

Dear lord,
Make my words legible,
Give me wisdom in your way,
Just to pray for her beautiful pain.
Amen.