Flawless Silent Remembrance

I looked down and there they were,
Scars of blade sliced across pulsating veins
The once flawless wrist is marred
By the memories of pain

I can't look away from them,
God, so badly I want to cry;
I can't believe it was ever like this,
I can only wonder why...

Just the emotions I once felt
Are enough to bite my lip,
The mountains of our memories,
And this is only the tip.

Met, befriended, loved;
Accepted and forgave,
Betrayed by concern and hope,
A person I couldn't save.

I can feel him watching my stare,
And slowly his wrists turns around.
The scars hide from my eyes
And still we make no sound.

Reluctantly, I shift my eyes to his face,
Where once I was his keeper.
His eyes are closed but he's not sleeping;
My lip bleeds as my teeth dig deeper.

How many times did I wish
That I could open his eyes to something more?
How many times do I still wish it,
That I could shake him to his core?

In the air I feel something,
But I'm not bold enough to label it regret
His chest rises and falls,
And I simply try to forget

I want to rest my hand on his head,
And tell him it's okay,
But I can't, I always can't,
And at this fact I look away.

His eyes are there and then gone,
And we both know what we will never attain -
The air lingers with things unsaid
I close my eyes and sigh.
Again.