My heart is going to break every time i see your smileing face, My heart is tired of hurting, the only way out of this is with this razor blade

When i go to cry there are no tears when i go to kill my self i start to think if some one is going to miss me then all at once i lose my nerves and i cant go throw it because i am scared of hurtting you

When i am with my friends i am all smiles, but when i am alone i am but tears. No one see the pain in my eyes and i will have it that way in till i die.