They think I am so lucky

They see you staring in my direction
They see the longing in your eyes
You try to hide but it's to easy to see
When your heart cries

They think I am so lucky
Because you are missing me
Reality just hit you
With all our memories

You never wanted to admit it
But now it's too strong to ignore
Your heart is filled with an emptiness
That you have never felt before

Your eyes start to tear up
You can no longer see clear
Your body feels weak
It's getting harder to hear

The people around you keep moving
But you can't look away
Wanting to take back what you did
Take back what you never meant to say

It is tearing you up inside
Because you realized that all along
That we were perfect for one another
But you always made it feel like we were wrong

They think that this is my victory
Because you finally comprehend what you had
They think this is everyone's dream
To see an old lover looking so bad

But you have had months of smiles
And I have had months of tears
You have been living your life
I have been living my fears

You are barely feeling the pain
That I know all to well
My heart has been in pieces
While yours just barely fell

Why did I have to go through this
Why couldn't you just know for sure
That no matter who else you had
It would never be like how we were

They think that I am so lucky
But they really have no clue
Why did it take someone else
To show how much I meant to you

All I could do is hope and wonder
If things were ever going to be made right
I never knew for sure
If you would ever look at me like you are tonight

You are filled so fast with regret and hope
That you do not know where to start
Wanting me to come back to you
When it was never my choice to part

So I will pretend that I am so lucky
That I deserve all this jealousy
Because all it took was a broken heart
For my love to notice me