It has been time for too long

I have wasted so much time
It is tearing me down inside
I have tried to just let things be
But my discontent I can no longer hide

I deserve more than to just settle
I need to say I have had enough
This is not where I want to be
This is not what I call love

You are the father of my children
And that's all you will ever be
I have never wanted you to be more
I have always wanted to be free

We have so many memories
And I hold them close to my heart
But it is like we are the same people
Living worlds apart

You say you noticed how I have grown
More class and sophisticated
But you are still the same
Your priorities are always belated

I am growing to resent you
Because I am doing all I can
I make sacrifices and compromises
While you live without a plan

It has become useless to talk
You always have some excuse or childish remark
I feel I am dealing with a wall
I am driven while you are in park

I don't know why I have stayed so long
This anti-relationship has left everyone confused
We were always supposed be just friends
But I have never felt so hurt and used

I would rather stay home alone with our kids
Then hang around and watch you go out
I would rather do this without any help
Then watch a father of three have no idea what parenting is about

I will be leaving behind so much
But it is something that I have to do
Too much of myself has been given
When I wasn't even meant to be with you

I am not sure if I am ready for the lonely road
But there is no other choice
If I stay I will loose my pride, respect
My happiness and my voice

We let this go way too far
As I said so many times before
I always tried to just open a window
When I should have just used the door

Goodbye