Why... When?

Why do I have to feel this again?
Loving and not receiving something in return.
Why do I have to go all over this again
for I can't bear the pain it leaves.

Why does my heart not know how to choose?
why does it always long for someone I can't have?
Why can't I have the person I want?
and why does it always end being just friend?

When would be the right time for me?
who would be the right person for me?
For I am tired of all this things.
Fed up with just fantasies.