That Crazy Babysitter

I remember you mentioning being molested,
But it was a long time ago I put it in the back of my mind,
I always said "How could anyone be so cold-hearted?",
How can someone do something so unkind?

And that's when I asked you to play a little game;
A little game that goes by the name "truth",
I know; I know that it sounds pretty lame,
But this all; all of it is just so uncouth.

You were young and needed another adult to watch you,
That's when it all started; with the babysitter,
She'd read you stories and play little games with you,
Confused; but she was the blister.

Playing with your toys she said "it's nap time",
Walking down the hallways; thoughts didn't occur,
And it was early only around noontime,
Never ever thought of anything happening with her.

That crazy babysitter,
What was she thinking?
How can you be so bitter?
It's him; you're hurting.

Climbing up into bed in your pj's she climbs in too,
"Darling what's that puzzled look on your face for?",
Heart pounding but it only lasted for a few,
His body she would invite herself to explore.

Her hands rubbing around inside of his pants,
He was scared, didn't like it "please stop!",
Questions; what ifs, the cans and the cants,
His fear escapes with just one single teardrop.

It happened all the time failed to ever end,
He hoped and hoped that she would leave him alone,
Until shortly after he was sent a brother like friend,
A kind almost just like his own.

Staying up late at night playing video games,
Playing with action figures and toy cars,
Joking and playing around coming up with nick names,
He tried, to shove away his painful scars.

That crazy babysitter,
Look what she's done,
His life isn't any easier,
Because of your so called "fun".

Late at night their eyes began to grow heavy,
Quit their game and walked side by side to bed,
The road he has hauled was bumpy, can't you see?
Sprawled out, tired-on top of the bedspread.

He drifts off into a sleep; a far away dream,
His friend, Darius wants to have some fun,
But this time the situation is extreme,
It's not right, who is this person?

I thought he was my friend; my best friend,
Supposed to be his favored companion,
Once again- this isn't the end,
His guard down, feeling weakened.

While fast asleep, Darius reached into his underwear,
Played and fooled around, didn't even care,
"Hey, hey..Darius what are you doing down there"?
He said it was OK, friends do this, "I swear!".

That crazy friend,
What was he thinking?
He was already hurt,
You're bluffing!

The worse happened and long after it finally ended,
Shy and quiet in school around crowds of people,
But something you didn't know- his heart was dented,
With his heart and feelings you need to be careful.

He had a hard time building up the self-confidence,
He couldn't give anyone any kind of eye contact,
Not even to state one single sentence,
His past made a huge if not gigantic impact.

But today he is strong and very happy,
With his life and his well being,
He made it through the crappy,
Ready to handle what life will bring.

But that crazy babysitter,
That crazy absurd friend, Darius,
You both equal a cruel monster,
Happy about your absence.

I'm so sorry that you had to endure such things,
I'm so sorry that you'll just never be able to forget,
It's not your fault you went through these horrible things,
Time to put the past on reset.

Continue going on strong.

Anonymous.