Numbing myself

It all starts with just one cut
To make me feel good
And yet inside is where the ache is shut
Because to the world I'm simply misunderstood

Next i take the pills
That shut down the brain
Yeah i know it kills
But it's the only thing stopping me from going insane

Swallow them down with a shot
Tequila, vodka, absinthe or a mix
By the time i drink I'll have forgot
And these drugs will be my quick fix

And yet even with all this
My pain still exists