I wonder

Do you wish me dead?
thinking of ways in your head

Do you wish me pain?
watching the tears fall like rain

Do you wish for me to crumble?
waiting with joy for my greatest fumble

Do you wonder.....

Why I smile everyday?
only with you in my way

Why I don't seem fazed?
even my nights are in a daze

Why I can still make others feel alright?
when I have my own battles to fight