Why Do I

Why do I still think of you
why are you still in my mind
been 7 long years since you left
I grew up a lot found a part of myself
seen and done alot of things
but you was never around
For years I was able to block you out
had no recollection of your existence not even a photograph in my mind
but now on the verge of my career
my success you pop back in my head
why do I still remember the love we shared even though it was tainted
why does my heart yurn for you again
just like the ink on my body you never really pass through my blood stream instead went straight to the heart
just like cancer I was able to put you in remission but you layed and waited till you arose again like the sunrise
you did make me really happy and made me hurt so bad that I'd never wish that pain on my worst enemy
as the good person I was able to forgive you but it was really for me so I can move on, yet here we are again 7 years later still thinking of you wanting you still loving you
why do I do this to myself we will never be together again we will never be the same way like when we were kids
Damn this heart of mines Damn this mind of mines locking these memories away lingering and waiting
why did you have to come back when I was with her why couldn't I have the same feelings for her that I did for you I know its not your fault that I feel this way you probably not thinking or feeling the same way I am but sometimes I wished you did............
why do I still love you............................