Why I'm Alone Today

This past week seems no less than a century
The pain and tears are killing me
I can no longer breathe
And I'm not even sure if my heart has a beat
Everyday is hell; that just seems to repeat

My days have merged into each other
Where one sun sets, it only brings another

Hell visits me at night
While numbness flows through day
And anywhere between is just empty twilight

I shouldn't care. It's not like you do
But I guess, I'm still holding on
to all we've been through

400 miles of tears, 10 pounds lost and a quivering heart
is all I have left to show....
and this is only with one week apart!

I'm still sitting here,
hoping all of this is just a misunderstanding
but I can easily see how well you're withstanding

I don't want to take your happiness away
That is exactly why I'm alone today