Crashing

Life is starting to feel like a train wreck,

everythings fine for one second & then in matter of seconds all goes wrong.

I thought everything was going to be perfect after you asked me to marry you,

but boy was I wrong.

Your family thinks I am selfish, obnoxious, loud, and immature,

which I am sorry that I work for everything I get,

I am sorry that I have always been the loud one,

I am sorry that I am not perfect,

but I will not let it hold me down.

Lupus is flaring,

stress is killing and I have no one to blame but myself.

Yeah they caused a lot of it, but I let it get this far.

You shouldn't have to choose between the one you love

and your family,

but I am not making you choose they are.

I love you more than words could ever say,

but is depression really worth all this?